I've been without Twitter for maybe three weeks now and the urge to do things on Twitter has largely disappeared. My enthusiasm for my feed had been waning in he weeks leading up to unplugging; 21 days later it's largely dissipated.
What's coming into focus, however, is what I was using Twitter for. I think the easy answer is unaccountable dreaming. I used it as a story telling platform, where the stories were things I had learned or wanted to do.
Without Twitter, I need a new place to write things down. I've been reluctant to commit to anything though, because I'm afraid of what that commitment means, the added overhead of having committed to doing that thing.
The emotion at the bottom is fear. I'm afraid of going deep on things. I'm afraid of missing out on other things by spending time on this other. I'm afraid that by investing time on X, I'll get behind in Y.
There's also uncertainty. I don't know what will happen if I invest in the things that I'm interested in. Some of it feels like 'hanging out' in semi-comfortable territory, going back over places I've already been out of curiosity. Is this me shirking growth, or becoming comfortable enough so that I can reach for the next challenge or branch with confidence and solid first principles.
I used to avoid these sorts of impulses because of time. I was worried I wouldn't have enough of it.
But, with the right amount of motivation, there is always plenty of time.
It's ok to take my time to write down the things I want to (re)explore, and then actually explore them.
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